Just under a week until Christmas.
here with some beautiful music, my tree all aglow with ornaments made by
5 years ago I would have had no little-made beauties on
5 years ago all that mattered to me, to be really honest, was
My tree would have looked 'perfect', but been perfectly meaningless.
wouldn't trade all those little beauties for all the designer ornaments
in the world. I wouldn't trade the
drawings held by magnets, or the smudge marks or the piles of laundry
for anything. No one could have told me that I would stop caring about things being 'just so' and how it all looked from the outside. I just had to find out, over time, what really matters.
In another 5 years I am hopeful I will have died to self a little more, to be able to look back and see more selfishness dissolved with time. Some days it seems like there is still so very far to go. I am so thankful for His grace.
The little ones are all tucked in sound asleep. And when they are asleep and I am waiting for the one with
whom I share a name to come home I am so tempted to sneak in their
rooms and steal a kiss, steal a moment of prayer over them and their
little hearts, still so new to the world. There is so much hurry and
busy to get through the day and get everyone to bed that when all the
rush is done and all that is left is quiet I wish I had taken just a
little longer to get them tucked in to sleep. Just one more story. Just
one more hug. When the days seem long and hard may I always remember
that the time is so fleeting, already passing so fast and breathless.
When they are all grown and gone off will they come back to their Momma
Will I be the place their hearts long for as the
Christmas Season approaches?
I hope so. I pray so. I pray that we so
impress on them the meaning of this season, the reason for the
celebration that they always treasure it as I am learning to treasure it
now. Not as the world may see it but as it is. As the gift. Just as
they are a gift to me.
Every year I get Christmas a little more. It moves me a little more. The reality of this Jesus, this Emmanuel. The gift of God with us. It blows my mind. Such a crazy, precious, loving, miraculous gift. May you see it friend. May you feel it and know it down in your very bones this year. The gift. This Merry Christmas ♥